Sullen v.5



17 years

Monday, October 02, 2006

My mom and sister recently came out to visit me. It was so wonderful to see them, and they couldn't have come at a better time. I thought it was a spontaneous decision for them to visit as a result of amazing airfare tickets, but now I am beginning to wonder if they decided to come for the primary purpose of discussing something with me that hasn't been brought up for 17 years. I suppose I always figured if it wasn't a big deal to the people who I thought knew, then it really wasn't a big deal to me.

I honestly don't think I ever felt it was a big deal even if other other people did acknowledge it. . now I am beginning to think I have seriously been fooling myself for 17 years. Apparently my sister didn't know until recently. . God literally placed it on her heart to ask my parents (the *same day* they had, finally?, decided to discuss it privately) . . and she says a lot of things now make sense to her. She also pointed out some things I hadn't noticed, and it is very concerning.