Sullen v.5

             

      

 
on the other side

Friday, January 20, 2006

screw that whole 'wear my heart on my sleeve' bit. . it's not gonna happen if everything around me is flashing 'shady' and communication is nil or uncomprehendable. i sure as hell am done dealing with the vague, and only if someone can step-up and express themselves in a coherent-direct-way do i want to consider possibilities. . not even A possibility, but possibilit*ies*: serious vs. not vs. nothing. . but i don't want to even think about possibilities when I don't have the latter (coherent directness). anyway. i made what effort i could to bring it out of shady-territory, even if my method was a bit shady. . at least I attempted *something* that was direct and offered a chance to open up some area of adult communication. i'm not in middle school, and i refuse to play silent hope-you-figure-it-out games.

anyway.

it's just frustrating because i thought this was finally going somewhere. i didn't know where, but finally had something i could directly work with. . only for it to disappear. second thoughts? yeah me too, but at least i can face my fears. . or at least i make the effort.

so I found this perfect song that makes me want to play it on repeat all-the-time. so beautiful sounding. Sheryl Crow.. not usually a fan, but lately finding her new cd to have some good stuff:


Sheryl Crow - Always On Your Side

My yesterdays are all boxed up and neatly put away
But every now and then you come to mind
Cause you were always waiting to be picked to play the game
But when your name was called, you found a place to hide
When you knew that I was always on your side

Well everything was easy then, so sweet and innocent
But your demons and your angels reappeared
Leavin' all the traces of the man you thought you'd be
Leavin' me with no place left to go from here
Leavin' me so many questions all these years

But is there someplace far away, someplace where all is clear
Easy to start over with the ones you hold so dear
Or are you left to wonder, all alone, eternally
This isn't how it's really meant to be
No it isn't how it's really meant to be

Well they say that love is in the air, but never is it clear,
How to pull it close and make it stay
Butterflies are free to fly, and so they fly away
And I'm left to carry on and wonder why
Even through it all, I'm always on your side

But is there someplace far away, someplace where all is clear
Easy to start over with the ones you hold so dear
Or are we left to wonder, all alone, eternally
But is this how it's really meant to be
No is it how it's really meant to be

Well if they say that love is in the air, never is it clear
How to pull it close and make it stay
If butterflies are free to fly, why do they fly away
Leavin' me to carry on and wonder why
Was it you that kept me wondering through this life
When you know that I was always on your side

Lin  

  

 

 




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