so true...
"Knowing you, you're looking to the future in advance of everyone else, weighing your choices and reevaluating your plans. It's definitely big-picture stuff, but it's exactly the kind of thing you're best at. Right now, though, your view is curiously limited -- it could be your emotions are getting in the way, or the daily routine has you worn down. Activate your imagination -- there's a choice here you're not seeing, and it may be the right one."
I don't know about "everyone else," because it seems like a lot of people are where I'm at now -- determining the future. It's constantly on my mind lately. Weighing choices and reevaluating really is exactly what I'm doing. Sometimes I make it sound like everything I do is "spontaneous," but the truth is a lot of it is the result of intense thinking/planning. I really don't do anything spontaneous. Crazy adventures I decide to do are pretty much planned. Granted I don't always know where I'm going with them, but I do know the option/potential/good/bad whenever I go.. meaning I've evaluated all things considerably in my mind.
It is true, too, that my view feels a bit limited right now. And I'm not going to lie, I do think it is the result of emotions. "But maybe I want to stay close to..." .. or "maybe I should find out where my friends are going, or better yet.. get them to come with me. :P"
I feel like I'm in the position to do whatever I want right now, and I really have to plan carefully because it is.. somewhat?. laying the foundation of my career/relations/future. That's not to say I expect to have the same career my entire life, but I do want my career to lead me in a direction that makes me happy on a daily basis. I think it's possible. Anyway.
To make a crazy thought short, I've been increasingly considering a move back to DC. *shrug* I don't know. I loved it there (despite the ridiculous coldness). Not to mention a lot of my close friends are applying to Georgetown Grad. school, and it wouldn't be such a bad thing to be near them (assuming they get in and go). And not at all a factor in why I would go, haha, but Davi* is there. We still keep in touch and whatnot.. I dunno... I wouldn't mind getting to know him better because I feel like what we had was shortlived, but an interesting chemistry was there. *not why I would go though!* haha... man.. maybe it all is an emotional-thing in my mind right now.. which is really funny because I'm usually more rational than emotional when thinking about options.
Ugh.. and I do feel like there is *one obvious choice* that is there that I'm not seeing right now.. which is why I'm so hesitant to tell anyone about "my plans". I FEEL something... it's a weird sense of excitement that there's something great (I've said this before), but I just haven't found it yet.. I don't know what that means.. it's just a feeling that says "don't make any decisions yet because something hasn't happened that will make the decisions easy."
guess we'll see.
Lin *
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